Who Run The World?

Most of my sex education at school comprised of being instructed to avoid getting pregnant for as long as possible, at the very least until we had established a good career for ourselves. That and bananas on condoms of course. So, when at the age of 27, I did get pregnant (with a very sought…

Lockdown Baby

My blood boiled as I listened to my neighbour having yet another family gathering in his back garden. We were at the peak of lockdown and meeting other households at all was forbidden. I held my new-born baby close to my chest and gritted my teeth against the injustice of it all. Here I was,…

A Bit of a Boob

I’ve always been a bit scared of my own boobs. They’ve always been this part of me that popped up out of nowhere, and garnered lots of interest from people other than myself. I could never understand why teenage boys were so obsessed with the two bags of fat stuck to my chest just because…

Peace & Love (no rotten bones)

One of life’s greatest moments is that feeling you get when you walk out of the hairdresser’s. You know the one. Your hair bounces as if gravity doesn’t exist and you’re pretty sure that every person walking past in the street is looking at your new swishy ‘do with admiration. Occasionally there’s an upbeat backing…

#Livingmybestlife

I let my head nod and eyes glaze as the wizened opinions of yet another doctor well above me in the career ladder washed over my head. This chap was the third person this week to tell me the absolute correct and only way I should be directing my career and living my life. Every…

Invisible Bravery Award

I couldn’t help but notice the white knuckles of the lady as she gripped her partner’s hand. She was 26 – my age exactly – and going through one of the worst days of her life. I had just delivered the news that she had had a miscarriage, and as I used long forceps to…

Am I depressed?

Am I depressed? That’s the question I’ve been asking myself every night as I drive home with tears threatening to block my vision, and the lingering thought that if I turned the steering wheel just an inch to the right I might not have to go in to work tomorrow. Am I depressed, or am…

Porridge and a cup of tea.

3 months ago, I started my first job as a doctor. The moment I had been having nightmares about and sweating over for almost a decade finally occurred on August 3rd. Luckily for me, fate would have it that my introduction to being responsible for human lives was to take place in the specialty of…

Dreaming starts with a G

I grew up in a very small, very close church. Every adult older than me was ‘uncle’ or ‘auntie’ and most of them were blood related to me somehow anyway. Sunday was the one day a week I looked forward to getting away from the rest of the world, spending time with my real friends,…

I Think, Therefore I Am.

On the Open Day for Manchester University seven years ago, I remember peering out of the car window and seeing people who looked a similar age to myself walking around the streets, going about their student business. But there was something harrowingly wrong with them. There were lots of people walking, but they all seemed…